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Oct 20th, 2008

Goodbye

I was about to delete my account, but I figured what the hell, I'll leave it.   I've really come to hate this place, though.   I'm pretty much come to hate everything.   I put my heart and soul into everything I did.   And it just never, ever mattered.   Ever.  In anything I did.   And now it no longer matters to me.

I took it all in stride.   When I fell of the horse I got right back up again.   It never mattered.  It never fucking mattered.   I got hit from all sides and I just kept moving.   I was as kind as I could possibly be to people.    I tried never to get angry, but to show compassion.   It was never, ever, ever, ever enough.    I'm sick of it.   Totally sick of it.   I have absolutely no strength left.  None.  I'm done.   Totally, completely utterly done.    All I want is out.


Posted by AuroraBorealis at 07:08 on Oct 20th, 2008 (updated Oct 20th, 2008)  
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byanothername
Posted on 07:24AM on Oct 20th, 2008
Life gets very tough sometimes. I'm really sorry your life is feeling like that right now. Give yourself some time.
MsIndievidual
Feeling tired
Posted on 07:46AM on Oct 20th, 2008
I can see what you mean, yet I've probably never experienced like you, so it's not my right to say that I know what you mean. If you decide to stay away from here, I want to wish you all the best in your life!
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