The Blog of auroraborealis

I hate my life.    I really hate my life.    I've been trying to pull it together--I've been trying with all my might but it just isn't working, I'm crashing and burning.    There are some people who are just born losers and I'm one of them.     I work my ass off for nothing.   There is no joy in my life, no good times, no celebrations, no happiness, nothing.    Just hard work for the benefit of others.    All my life I've tried to be optimistic, I've tried to keep a good attitude but I just can't anymore.   I can't, there's no reason.   I have lost my sense of wonder, I have lost my desire to try because I know that nothing good will ever come of it.    I have become a bitter, angry, hollow shell of a human being.    Cruelty has broken me.   I just needed for something good to happen--one thing to let me continue to believe that there was goodness in the world.    But that's not going to happen.   Good things don't just fall out of the sky and I don't have the energy to put into anything anymore.   I am just completely, utterly, deeply and profoundly lonely and I just can't take it anymore.    I am so completely and totally empty I just don't have any life left in me.   It's just all been to hard.   I can't take anymore.