Happiness | auroraborealis's Blog

Every have one of those days when you wake up and just feel like all is right with the world?   I'm so happy right now.   So completely happy.   I actually feel a bit guilty about it.   I know so many people who aren't happy and don't have the resources I do to pull themselves out of it.   But it's not like anything was ever handed to me.   I've put in the hard work and I earned everything I've got.   Years and years and years I could never rest.   There was always another mountain to climb, another obstacle to overcome, someone else who needed love and attention more than I did.    I used to feel terribly guilty about asking when it would be my turn.    I just needed a turn where I got something for a change.   And now it's finally my turn.    Everything I've given out is coming back to me in spades.   All of the love and care and attention I've put into life is finally coming back to me.   I look back on my journey and I'm proud.    Proud that I (almost) always took the high road.   I always took responsibility for my actions, made every attempt I could to right my wrongs so I wouldn't have to carry them with me.   Being open and honest about myself when what I really wanted to do was run and hide.   It was hard going through it, at times almost impossible.   But I'm at a plateau right now.   A resting point.   I can look back and see how far I've come, how much I've grown, and I'm really, really proud of myself.

This is a huge milestone in my life.   A major turning point.    Volume I is done and I'm just starting Volume II.    My life will never be the same again.   I am loved.   Fully, completely, unconditionally loved by a man I deeply love and respect.   I accomplished something.   Not just something, the greatest thing to which a human being can aspire.   The rest of our lives are going to be devoted to sharing that love with the world and bringing as much happiness to the lives of others as we possibly can.    I wish I could make everyone in the world feel as happy as I feel today.