In the Arms of an Angel | auroraborealis's Blog

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel “not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
 

I hit the wall last week.    Exhaustion from work and from being in pain got to me.   I was pushing as hard as I could and everyone just needed more and I started to melt a bit around the edges, but my Angel wrapped himself around me, protected me, made me feel safe and helped me through it.    Usually when I hit a point where I can't take care of absolutely everything at all times people decide I'm useless to them and ditch me.    No one has ever stayed with me, taken care of me, helped me.   I felt not good enough.   I felt like a mess.   I was terrified of him.   I needed a break but couldn't ask for one.   He understood.   He gave it to me.    He is so kind to me, and I'm so not used to kindness.   He is loving and caring and tender and gentle and good.   In the arms of my Angel I have found more comfort than I ever expected.