Warm puddle of goo | auroraborealis's Blog

I've lost my edge.   I've lost all of my edges.   I've lost all definition and I'm just a warm puddle of goo.   It's a good feeling.   Actually, it's a great feeling.    I've been emotionally starved for years, always needing, but never being able to merit, approval.   No matter how strong, how capable, how confident someone is, people are social creatures and all of us need approval and validation.    I've got that in my life now.   I have approval, I have validation, I feel loved, very, very loved.

I have temporarily lost all motivation.   I have no push, no drive, no passion.   I have no desire to do anything except to stay in this place and lap up all of the attention and affection I can.   

Warmth is such a new feeling for me.   I've always kept myself warm with my own inner glow, but my flame has been growing dimmer and dimmer for a long time.     For the first time ever in my life I can warm myself by someone else's fire.   I feel like I can just let go of everything for a little while.   Just let go and coast, relax, breathe.   I'm totally in my happy place right now.