Meltdown | auroraborealis's Blog

I can't stop sobbing.  I just can't stop anymore. Will someone please fucking explain to me what I did wrong??????   I've worked hard all my life, I've never expected anything handed to me.    I've always been kind, I've always cared about people.    I'M A GOOD PERSON!!!!!!    I AM!!!!!!!!!!

All I ever get is crap.   That's it.    There are no surprises in my life.   There are no parties.   There are no picnics.   There's nothing.    I hate my life. There's no joy, no happiness nothing.   What have I done that was so bad I deserve this?   I live in chronic pain with a body that's not overly cooperative, but I don't let it interfere with work or my son's life.   I take care of everyone, no one takes care of me.    I climb every mountain, overcome every obstacle and do everything I can to make the world a better place along the way.

My life hasn't been worth it.   Not one little, teeny, tiny bit.    I give up.   I just give up.    Hear that world????    I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!!!    I GIVE!!!!!!     I CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE!!!!    YOU FUCKING WIN!!!!   I give up.