Really bad day | auroraborealis's Blog

I want to die.  It's not going to get any better.  There's nothing that will help.  I can take medication, but it still won't change the circumstances.   I can find someone else, but he'll just treat me like crap and walk away laughing, too.

I have done lots of good things in my life.   I've been a good person.   I've been kind, I've been helpful, I do random acts of kindness whenever I can.    I've tried always to be straight with people and to never hurt anyone.   It's never come back to me.   All I've ever gotten is treated like crap and laughed at.  It will never, ever, ever, ever, ever change.    I hate people.    They are evil, mean and horrible and I just don't want to be a part of this world anymore.   I just don't have what it takes anymore.    People are monsters.   Horrible, awful, selfish, cruel monsters.   I am hurting so badly and there is absolutely nothing anyone can do.   I'm so sick of this whole fucking world.  I hate it.  I hate it.    I hate it.