Bad Day | auroraborealis's Blog

I spent four hours this morning trying not to type out this blog.    I typed out another version and didn't save it.   I might as well put it somewhere.

I just got back from the grocery store.    I kept breaking down and sobbing.   People thought I was crazy.   At one point I almost collapsed on the floor.

I want to die.    I don't even want to live anymore.   I've lost my will.    I don't know what it is about me that draws cruelty and abuse, but I can't take any more.    I can't.   I don't have it in me.    My life has been too hard, it's broken me, and I can't take any more.

I'm going to go spend the rest of the day curled up in bed under the covers crying.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.